Sitting here at 230a on a Tuesday morning wondering where my life has gone. I know I am lucky to have what I have however, I am tired of being in such a funk all the time. I'm tired of being broke, I'm tired of feeling as though my life has passed me by and mostly I'm tired of feeling oh so very alone. I know....I'm being a huge whiner...but damn.....


Like right now, my car  is acting up...needs a tune up...I can buy the parts but I have no one to help me...no one to turn to when I need help for anything. I'm literally 100% alone in my life. I try to make friends and it turns out badly every time.  
I am falling back into my depression again....I don't care about much anymore....I just wish I had one hand to reach out and help me...to pull me out of this pit of nothingness that I fell into so long ago. 

Give me something to smile about....something to care about.....


I hate my pathetic life right now....... please show me the way back