When I woke up today, I was greeted with some news that, again was hard to take. Even though it was happy news, I felt deep sadness. This is what I wanted for myself....so badly. A few years back, I felt so happy and now....well the polar opposite. Even thinking about how I felt with this person in my life and the disappointment that it wasn't reciprocated, fills me with despondency more then anyone can know.  Its hard to accept something that you wished for...the days seem a bit darker. I ponder if this will ever lift....the black fog that seems to hover ominously over my life.